Hi

So, my blog have been dead for quite sometimes. Anyway to all new readers let me introduce myself.

I'm catherine and i'm turning 22 this year. I live in singapore, i have 2 dogs at home and i got a boyfriend who is older than me by 5 years.

I'm a capricorn, the reason for me coming back to having a blog is that this is a rather safe place for me to rant or just share about my day and maybe reflect on my action.

So yeap. This post is just about introduction so bye.

Hey my fellow humans , how are you ?
Is everything fine? I hope it is because here i am gonna talk about my day ~

So i didn't went to school yesterday which is the first day of school AS i was sick , but really tho who cares about this right ,let's move on . Okay so i been coughing really uncontrollably many times today in class and if anyone in my class happens to read this , i apologize for that.

And recently , JYP release a teaser - coming home - G.SOUL tbvh , i have no idea who that is so i check him out , since i like many JYP artist songs or group . ( GOT7 / cough/ ) , To be honest , i was shocked at how amazing his voice is , and i went to check him out , and his covers are all really amazing , if i could ask him to be my vocal teacher , i would . Totally ,

One of his cover -> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gFfFH12hfy8
 Okay , i'm not any where linked with JYP i just feel like letting people out there know about him more so ~ He's really talented and amazing and i'm glad he's back in korea , with JYP.

GOT7 1 year anniversary is this Friday and they just won the best new artist award HOW CAN I NOT BE PROUD OF THEM ?!

Anyway , my life is kinda boring and i have nothing much to update except i would love to thanks everyone that i met through got7 , really can't wait to meet all of them in real life ~

all right
up till now
This is autumn
Thanks for reading ~

I'm only human

I'm only human , who dreams has been crushed ...

I first went in to this school , this course which everyone around me knew , that i'm struggling , with 0% interest or should i even say negative 100% interest in it , I hate it so much that i would rather be lying in the hospital , with people around me praying days and nights for me to wake up , or just move my fingers , then go to school . That's how much i hate it . Yeah , i know there's people out there who would think that i'm selfish for wishing something like this happens , but just imagine , being forced to study the subjects that you hate every single days , and there's no way out , how would you feel ? Let's take it as you hate science ( just an example , if you love science , replace this with your most hated subject ) , and you're forced to study science related topics every single day .

Now , i'm graduating soon , in march or april which i'm glad , Because it's basically a living hell for me , and i thought , that i could do what i love after this , now guess what ? It's crushed .. once again ..

Someone please tell me what is dreams , when people around you is slowly craving you into becoming a robot , with no feelings , no love , no hates , no angers , no dreams . Jackson from got7 instagram says " Never give up on your dreams no matter what " But how ? When people around won't listen to anything else , except money . Even if i says that the dreams i want and the course i had decided to go , do have a future , and the pays is quite nice , they still wouldn't listen and force me to study what i hate ? I'm only humans , not a robot . Stop ....

What's the point of living , when you're slowly becoming a robot ? What's the point of living , when you can't do what you love ? For even a short period ? What's the point of living , when your emotions are slowly fading?, what's the point of living , when deep down inside , you don't feel anything anymore ? What's the point of living , when your dreams and goals are always being crushed .... 

I'm not killing myself , don't worry , I would still be alive , even though this sounds like a suicide letter , I'm not angry too , i'm just disappointed how everyone around me wouldn't care whether my smile is real .... especially the ones that i care about the most .... 

I'm only human....

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But now .. it seems that , i'm slowly turning emotionless ....

Hey everyone , 2014 have officially ended few days ago , how is 2015 to you by now ? Is it nice ? Or is it bad ? And how would you describe 2014? For me , 2014 , basically can be said as the worst year i ever had.
Let me talk about how 2014 have been for me and then let's go to how i wish 2015 would be and i hope it would go by the way i wish it would .
Firstly in 2014 , i know about KPOP even more and of course jump right into it even more. The first fandom i went to and become somewhat dedicated is GOT7 and EXO . And 2014 have been a tough year for EXO and KPOP basically .. dating scandal, sasengs attack , accidents , members leaving etc ... It just isn't a good year for them .

Because of me liking kpop even more , that leads to me having many friends outside school , be it real life or on the internet . And i have created a twitter name for myself as i'm kinda tired of using Cat which everyone who knows me in real life calls me , and that is Autumn .
Anyway , I know i have kinda neglect many things as 2014 went past , and that is of course this blog . So i'm here , trying to save this . I mean , i make this with a reason and that is have a space i can share with others about my daily life as much as possible . And to be honest , i'm really glad to know those people , be it in real life or not .

And I been doing what i been wanting to do since young and that is , to learn a sport. But what kind of sport it is , i would rather keep it a secret . But hey , maybe one day , you would know what it is?
I been doing it for quite awhile now , and to be honest , i enjoy it a lot . But unfortunately i had to take a break as i was sick and the doctor kinda demand me to .

Alright 2015 , To be honest , i would love to find what do i really want to do in life and of course , go to a course for it and take it as a major . It could be related to the art ? Or media ? I have no idea right now . But i know i would sooner or later in 2015.
And i have bought a sketchbook , i would hope by the end of 2015 , it would be filled with fanarts , and if possible , 7 sketchbook full of personal drawing of a certain GOT7 members and of course 10 for exo , 2 for luhan and yi fan .. ( I miss them so much okay ) , 7 for BTS ? i would just try my best to.. SO don't expect too much , i might be able or i might just give up half way.

Anyway , to be honest , i have no idea who been reading my blog , if you're reading this and you have been reading it for a long time , i'm sorry that it is dead for so long , and thank you for being here for so long .

Up until now , this is Cat , A.k.a Autumn ,
I hope 2015 would be good for you
Thanks for reading