Hey my fellow humans , how are you ?
Is everything fine? I hope it is because here i am gonna talk about my day ~

So i didn't went to school yesterday which is the first day of school AS i was sick , but really tho who cares about this right ,let's move on . Okay so i been coughing really uncontrollably many times today in class and if anyone in my class happens to read this , i apologize for that.

And recently , JYP release a teaser - coming home - G.SOUL tbvh , i have no idea who that is so i check him out , since i like many JYP artist songs or group . ( GOT7 / cough/ ) , To be honest , i was shocked at how amazing his voice is , and i went to check him out , and his covers are all really amazing , if i could ask him to be my vocal teacher , i would . Totally ,

One of his cover -> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gFfFH12hfy8
 Okay , i'm not any where linked with JYP i just feel like letting people out there know about him more so ~ He's really talented and amazing and i'm glad he's back in korea , with JYP.

GOT7 1 year anniversary is this Friday and they just won the best new artist award HOW CAN I NOT BE PROUD OF THEM ?!

Anyway , my life is kinda boring and i have nothing much to update except i would love to thanks everyone that i met through got7 , really can't wait to meet all of them in real life ~

all right
up till now
This is autumn
Thanks for reading ~

I'm only human

I'm only human , who dreams has been crushed ...

I first went in to this school , this course which everyone around me knew , that i'm struggling , with 0% interest or should i even say negative 100% interest in it , I hate it so much that i would rather be lying in the hospital , with people around me praying days and nights for me to wake up , or just move my fingers , then go to school . That's how much i hate it . Yeah , i know there's people out there who would think that i'm selfish for wishing something like this happens , but just imagine , being forced to study the subjects that you hate every single days , and there's no way out , how would you feel ? Let's take it as you hate science ( just an example , if you love science , replace this with your most hated subject ) , and you're forced to study science related topics every single day .

Now , i'm graduating soon , in march or april which i'm glad , Because it's basically a living hell for me , and i thought , that i could do what i love after this , now guess what ? It's crushed .. once again ..

Someone please tell me what is dreams , when people around you is slowly craving you into becoming a robot , with no feelings , no love , no hates , no angers , no dreams . Jackson from got7 instagram says " Never give up on your dreams no matter what " But how ? When people around won't listen to anything else , except money . Even if i says that the dreams i want and the course i had decided to go , do have a future , and the pays is quite nice , they still wouldn't listen and force me to study what i hate ? I'm only humans , not a robot . Stop ....

What's the point of living , when you're slowly becoming a robot ? What's the point of living , when you can't do what you love ? For even a short period ? What's the point of living , when your emotions are slowly fading?, what's the point of living , when deep down inside , you don't feel anything anymore ? What's the point of living , when your dreams and goals are always being crushed .... 

I'm not killing myself , don't worry , I would still be alive , even though this sounds like a suicide letter , I'm not angry too , i'm just disappointed how everyone around me wouldn't care whether my smile is real .... especially the ones that i care about the most .... 

I'm only human....

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But now .. it seems that , i'm slowly turning emotionless ....

Hey everyone , 2014 have officially ended few days ago , how is 2015 to you by now ? Is it nice ? Or is it bad ? And how would you describe 2014? For me , 2014 , basically can be said as the worst year i ever had.
Let me talk about how 2014 have been for me and then let's go to how i wish 2015 would be and i hope it would go by the way i wish it would .
Firstly in 2014 , i know about KPOP even more and of course jump right into it even more. The first fandom i went to and become somewhat dedicated is GOT7 and EXO . And 2014 have been a tough year for EXO and KPOP basically .. dating scandal, sasengs attack , accidents , members leaving etc ... It just isn't a good year for them .

Because of me liking kpop even more , that leads to me having many friends outside school , be it real life or on the internet . And i have created a twitter name for myself as i'm kinda tired of using Cat which everyone who knows me in real life calls me , and that is Autumn .
Anyway , I know i have kinda neglect many things as 2014 went past , and that is of course this blog . So i'm here , trying to save this . I mean , i make this with a reason and that is have a space i can share with others about my daily life as much as possible . And to be honest , i'm really glad to know those people , be it in real life or not .

And I been doing what i been wanting to do since young and that is , to learn a sport. But what kind of sport it is , i would rather keep it a secret . But hey , maybe one day , you would know what it is?
I been doing it for quite awhile now , and to be honest , i enjoy it a lot . But unfortunately i had to take a break as i was sick and the doctor kinda demand me to .

Alright 2015 , To be honest , i would love to find what do i really want to do in life and of course , go to a course for it and take it as a major . It could be related to the art ? Or media ? I have no idea right now . But i know i would sooner or later in 2015.
And i have bought a sketchbook , i would hope by the end of 2015 , it would be filled with fanarts , and if possible , 7 sketchbook full of personal drawing of a certain GOT7 members and of course 10 for exo , 2 for luhan and yi fan .. ( I miss them so much okay ) , 7 for BTS ? i would just try my best to.. SO don't expect too much , i might be able or i might just give up half way.

Anyway , to be honest , i have no idea who been reading my blog , if you're reading this and you have been reading it for a long time , i'm sorry that it is dead for so long , and thank you for being here for so long .

Up until now , this is Cat , A.k.a Autumn ,
I hope 2015 would be good for you
Thanks for reading