Life is like a game
Always fighting and watching our backs
who is real
who is fake
who is our friends
who is our enemies
And who is the spy
We shall never know
Until the game for us stop.

you know
I like being alone
But there are times i feel lonely
But i hate knowing people
because everyone gonna leave
And we would all be alone again
before the next one comes
And being alone
no one can ever hurts you
And that should be it

Victims

The victim of broken heart

The victim of being judge

We're all a victims

Of this world filled with lies 

Always watching our backs

And we could never rest.

She's the girl that's always wear a smile

She's polite, friendly and confident

Always getting the spotlight

Everyone thought she love clothes with long sleeves

As she wears it everyday

Little do they know

She wears it to hide her little secret

Her smile is fake

And everything else she does

She looks into the mirror

And notice every single flaws

She's been trying hard to leave this world

But it seems like they wouldn't take her 

So she gets up everyday

And thinking why is she awake

She secretly wish to be dead

As the light had died on her

She hates herself so much

You wouldn't even understand...

Everyday

Waking up in the morning
And hoping that I get sick
So I can just rest in bed for a day
And escape from this reality
I don't remember how I get from being impatience for leaving the house
To never wanting to leave my room
But I still get up
Walking out of the room
And thinking ...
Let's go...

To idols , from your international fan

 To ( KPOP ) Idols, From your international fan

If only we're not separated by the ocean

if only you could be right beside me listening to my heartbeat

listen to the rhythm of my heart

letting you know how much i love you 

i'm in love with a group of strangers

who is love by thousand of people

who i know almost everything about

but they would never know who am i 

I would never be there

watching their every concert

every comebacks

I don't speak your language

But the love of music make us close 

Music make me know who they are

 Waiting for your variety show to be subbed in the language that i know

is a torture yet an excitment

I would never be that lucky fan

I would never be there for your fan meet

or any of your fansign

Getting a photo from you seem like a impossible mission

let along an autograph

fan fiction dirty my mind

scenarios make me cry

sasaengs make me want to be there

protecting you from every danger

I know there's a day where you be love by that special girl

and you would never be mine

I promise when that days come

I would not say how much i love you

I know there's a day where i would be love by that special guy

I would keep my love for you a secret

forever in my heart

 I'm not the fan that you would see in every event

I'm the fan that would wish for your health

for you to be happy

 seeing you smile make my day

seeing you cry breaks my heart

My love for you is a happiness

yet... an overdose.

- END - 

( SEE WHAT I DID THERE ) 

如果我们没被海平线分割开

如果你能在我身边听我心跳

听我心里那说爱你的节奏

我爱上了一群陌生人

他们同时被上千人所爱着

他们的一切我都知道

可是他们却不知道我是谁

我没办法出席每个演唱会

或每个回归

我们的语言不通

但是对音乐的爱让我们感觉更接近

是因为音乐让我知道你们的存在

等你出席的戏和节目

有我知道的语言字幕

是一种折磨也是一种快乐

我永远也不可能是那位幸运的粉丝

也不可能出席你每一次的粉丝见面会, 专辑签唱/签名会

能和你合照是个想也不敢想的不可能任务

更用不着提签名了

粉丝们写的那些故事毁了我的单纯

那些"如果"也让我的眼泪忍不住的留了下来

私生饭让我好想在你身边保护你

我知道你终有一天会发现你心中那最美丽最特别的女人

你也不可能会属于我

我答应当那天来临的时候

我绝不说有多爱你

我也知道有一天我也会被那对我来说是最特别的男人所爱着

那时我会把那爱你的心情永远隐藏在心里

我不是你在每个活动上见到的那位

我是那天天为你的健康祈祷

你的微笑足以让我的阴天变晴

你流下眼泪时我的心会碎

我对你的喜爱是一种快乐

也是....一种无法自拔的上瘾

(完)

Mask

Everyone had a past they wouldn't wish to talk about, think about or let anyone make a joke out of.

And here come trust. Once you get someone to trust you enough, you would slowly see what kind of person he or she is under the mask. Which all of us called it, "protection".

But some people is either brainless/heartless or just some part of their brain is loose and they don't realize when someone say "okay stop it"/"enough" or when their smile turns into a frown they should shut the fuck up. This is when anything you're saying isn't funny anymore and it's getting really hurtful and offensive. Everyone had a awful past and if someone opens up to you when you ask them is when they thought you're trustable or they wish to somehow become closer to you, not to let you make a joke out of. Just because the person aren't crying doesn't means you're not hurting them. You never know how a "joke" can make someone actually kill themselves. Some joke you think is funny doesn't means it is to everyone.

And hence, it will make the person who is hurt even more impossible to open up to others and remove his/her mask. Everyone had a mask they're secretly wearing. I'm not talking about a mask we all could see with naked eyes, if you see someone going out in a mask is either they're going for a party/got dared by his/her friends to do it/ he's or she's a killer (if it's the third option please run for your life and don't stay there feeling amuse that you actually saw a killer which act like one you saw in the horror movies, but if you do that then you deserve it. Who tell you never run?) I'm talking about the mask which isn't able to see. A happy mask/angry mask/ emotionless mask etc.
I had past which I hope to erase it all, but I know it's impossible. Everyone makes mistake so don't expect someone to be perfect. It's impossible and it's too stressful. Imagine being someone who is perfect and how everyone around you says things like "I'm sure you can do it in your first try, you're the perfect one" "he/she wouldn't need any help, he/she is like the genius of all genius" "you got just 99/100?! Shouldn't you get 100 instead? What happened to you?!" "You're joking right? You don't know how to do this?" I'm sure sooner or later all these would drive you into depression and suicide.

Oh and I just want to say, to anyone I don't care who you are, it's really annoying to ship me with any guys and I know I should had a boyfriend at my age but really I don't care and I like being single. Everyone around me is literally trying to pair me up with every single guy they met or if a guy actually come talks to me I get ship with him. It's really annoying . If a girl or guy is force to get into a relationship with someone, their relationship would never have love and it would only have responsibilities and hates.  No relationship should be like that. I choose when I want to had a boyfriend and I choose the one i want to live the rest of my life with. Just because I reject a guy and I'm a fangirl doesn't naturally means I had high standards.  I mean yeah fangirls do have high standard but that doesn't means I would use it to choose who I want to date. Some part of my idols is really what I want my boyfriend to have but not all. And let me just show a part where my idols and my future  boyfriend would have in common , sporty.

No one likes being forced to do things, and everyone had a mask to protect themselves from the society. But at the same time it's ironic how we says how fucked up society is but we're the society. Judging others is the reason for how messed up this society had become. I had no idea how models became so skinny they look like they only had skin and bones , when does looks actually become more important then personalities, since when people make a joke out of someone horrible past, since when humans become judgemental and always had somethings to say no matter how nice a person is.

I'm getting tired easily recently but at the same time insomnia is killing me. And that's why here I am at 12 midnight writing this post which would most probably make someone feel offended but just a fact , I'm not pinpointing to anyone in my post, but if you insist and the shoe fits, feel free to wear it and walk around in it.

I really wish one day everyone would be able to remove their mask and not care about how people thinks about them. But wishing to become someone more prettier isn't a crime and I'm fine with it if you think becoming prettier make you more confidence in yourself. But if you're doing it to impress, who exactly are you trying to impress anyway? Your boy/girlfriend ? If they can't accept who you are then leave them. You deserve better. Your idol? Let me just say, what happen in fanfic/scenarios/smut and one shots stories stays there. It would never happens in reality. Your parents? They love you. Enough says.

Maybe in a few more years time I would get double eyelid surgery. I know how the surgery goes and I know it would be painful. but I truly thinks that I can feel more confidence in myself if I had double eyelid and I had always wanted to do the double eyelid surgery since the age of 14. Just look at how determines I am to want something for some many years and I had never changed any part of my face to do surgery on. I'm happy with how I look except for my eyes.

I got to go now, thanks for reading and take care!

so hi i'm back

안 넝 하 세요 ! Bonjour ! HI ! I'm back because well , i finally went shopping !

Oh and i'm currently self studying korean and french ! (As you can see i tried typing in korean and french way of hello and my twitter have my nickname translated in korean so yup hahaha)

So me and leyi met up at scape for dinner , and then we went to far east plaza , at first i thought it was a rather boring place to go but damn it just prove me wrong okay ! The moment we went to a shop , we saw a shop selling literally everything at $10 ! You might think that the quality is bad that's well they selling really cheap , NO ! The quality is really good ! 간 ㄱ가 !

Like this cardigan i'm wearing in the photos , it was actually from that shop and it have a freaking hoodie YOU DO NOT GET SOMETHING LIKE THIS AT JUST $10 EVERYWHERE , and the person working there is just 14 yrs old and she have really good customer service skills !

Afterward i got a clutch at just $12 ! i kinda regret buying one at the flea ( scape flea ) as it cost me around $16 and it wasn't anywhere pretty compared to the one i bought at far east plaza .

It was literally just like bugis street , i wonder why did i even find it a boring place omg

And oh theres a store that sell kpop items ! Like running man , bigbang ( they even have some bigbang posters near the door okay ) etc !

Alright i have to go now , thanks for reading :) ! Bye see you soon ! 안 넝 히 게 세 요 , 다 음 에 봐 요 ! Au revoir , Á bientôt ! :)

TLP SINGAPORE !

So i went to exo TLP concert yesterday and i'm in post concert depression now T_T

Went there at 12 pm and guess what , i got lost . Clap for me please thank you , so i went around buying stuffs , i bought a tao fan , and the photobook ! And i managed to make a few friends while waiting in line !

Alright let's fast forward to the concert shall we , didn't manage to took any photo of them i'm sorry !

Their first song was MAMA , and tao noticed the fan i was holding and he looked at me from the start of MAMA till the end of MAMA , that eye contact is just HOLY STOP KILLING ME WILL YA , there's one part where he smirk at me so i got shy and start to hide myself behind the fan i'm holding and tao chuckle a little 

During the part where they said "we are one ! Hi we are exo"

tao ( in english ):
SAY E X O !!
fans : E X O !!
TAO :Say T A O !!
fans : T A O !!
Tao : MAKE SOME NOISEEEEEE
Fans and exo : TAO TAO TAO TAO TAO TAO TAO TAO
Tao : *smile shyly*
Tao said that tlp is a stage that is really special for them because it's a stage that is meant and make for EXO and baekhyun kept disturbing him when he was talking HAHAHA

Baekhyun ( said in korean )
Translator translate what he said in english
Baekhyun : ok thank you
Baekhyun said something again and translator translate what he said again and baekhyun kinda got annoyed or something and said OKAY THANK YOU !

(My dear baekhyun she's just doing her job X'D)

Sehun , kai and i forgotten who said that it's really hot today so i'm gonna give out everything today and we all started screaming !

Suho said that singapore have a really beautiful night view and apparently his english have limits

When tao signal the car to come out during machine , Kyunsoo popped out and give a innocent face before going back in , why must you be so cute omg HAHAHA ! 

And for the lucky fan segment apparently they choose the fan who is closest to the stairs !

Basically , thank you suho , sehun , xiumin , chanyeol and tao for noticing me and my area , i didn't expect to get noticed , especially by tao , my bias .

suho waved to me , xiumin and chanyeol smiled and had a few eye contact with me and sehun when he walk past my area , we kinda looked at each other too ! 

During black pearl , they were giving out roses and luhan thrown at my area and ended up my head got hit by the rose , he saw that and look at me innocently , please laugh at me people who is reading this Haha

Yixing was the sweetest guy i have ever met , he asked the staff to turn off the light so they could view the sliver ocean , noticed the things we did for exo and said that we are all beautiful . I bet he have no idea how this few words would save many girls self esteem and even life .

At the ending part , kai and baekhyun did the ice bucket challenge !!
Chanyeol passed 3 towel to baekhyun okay chanbaek moment my feel ;_;

Alright thats all i could remembered and i would this with some photo from yesterday !

 TLP , is the first concert i ever went to and it's really amazing , i'm glad to be part of the sliver ocean ! Really hope that they would come again ! 

Hey !

So hi , i know , i been neglecting here recently , but you know i had a really boring life !

So anyway , i got myself a new phone and it's the latest samsung galaxy S5 ! I got it in gold ! And nope i did not get it because exo advertise for it ! I got it even before the advertisment came out okay !

And i got a new cover for it HEHE

 and i met up with leyi , nicholas , ashley , joey and nicole at scape after meeting kimmie for a short while ! I'm sorry peggy and edwina i ended up being too lazy to head over hahaa

As you can see my eyeliner game is really strong HAHAHA

And i can't wait for next sat !

I just hope i won't look like crap on that day !

Or maybe i already look like crap everyday

Fuck low self esteem UGH

Alright thats all ! See ya next time :)

It's been a while since I last blog , and here I'm back :) 

Oh and I had decided to get myself cage bra ~ 

My back is an area in my body where I have some confidence in , follow by my ankle ! ( this photo might get me haters LOL ) 

Went to meet blogshop today , and went town with LeYi , I'm really not in the mood to do anything , and I swear if it's not for meeting blogshop , I don't think I will even get out of house ! I don't know but this few weeks I just feel like being lazy and stay at home 24/7 if I could ! We went to scape to take a look at the flea area, and then we head to 313 ! 

School is starting real soon , I just hope everything would go well :/ 

Alright , it's rather a short post ! See ya next time on my next post ! :) 

Hey :) so I had decided to make a YouTube channel ~~ 

My YouTube channel is YouTube.com/nonsensegirl23 ! I will be doing vlogs and many other stuffs ! So do subscribe ^^ 

Okay this post is short Ahahaa 

Do not leave me alone to shop

So I went out to town yesterday with bare face ( without make up or contact lens ) , and since I reach there earlier , I decided to walk around underground scape , bad idea . 

And as you all know , I'm a so call shopaholic , and I love to find cheap stuffs , if there's discount at your shop and I happen to walk past , do not worry because I will definitely walk inside , but whether I will buy something , it depends . 

Well , I got like a few stuffs so I thought why not I do a haul post ? But there won't be a photo of me wearing it at the moment , but when I do , I will upload it on my Instagram ! 

Okay so let's get started ! :D 

First up , we have the tattoo stockings / leggings ! 

Omg , you have no idea how long have I been finding them for ! And now I finally found it , of course I will buy it la ! I got this 2 for $22 ! 

And then I got this shirt from a shop that is having a 10% promotion 

I don't have a shirt like this and I like it so yeah I just got it ! I got this for like $19+ after discount ! 

And I thought that I need something to go with this top and I walked past this shop , they just opened the shop for like 2 months btw 

And I got it for like $15 ! Not bad right ! 

Finally after like few minutes , LeYi came and we went to eat Aston , walk around editor market and some other shops in cine , then we met up with Vanasha for a while before heading to H&M ! 

Oh ! I saw a leather long jeans in H&M which is like only $20 ! But I didn't get it cause it's jeans , my leg will sweat like siao la if I wear that , if it's shorts jeans I wouldn't mind . 

And yeah , that sums up my day ! Thanks for reading and don't forget to follow me on my social media by clicking on the icons beside ! :) 

Hey people ^^ 

So I went out to find Annabella few days ago , and my mum got injured :( , she and other passengers in the bus had already pressed the stop button and was already standing at the door , but the driver didn't stop at the bus stop but ended up driving over it and out of a sudden he step on the brake , which leads to my mum falling down , she bleed a lot , from what I heard from my mum , the tissue paper given to her by a girl was all wet by the blood , and she have a obvious injury at her left eyebrows there , but the uncle did apologize and it's better then he never right ! Oh and I'm updating using my phone as there's a small problem with my keyboard ! 

Okay , so I met up with Annabella to watch TLM 2 ! ( the lion men 2 ) , the only advertisement I got interest is NOC WATA part okay cause Jianhao HAHAHA 

The movie is really nice ! Regretted not watching the first part tho 

After the movie , we went to eat our dinner ! 

XIAO LONG BAO !! <3 

And of course , selfie ! 

And of course some Polaroid :D 

Isn't that baby so cute ~ 

And I look weird in the Polaroid I know 

Oh how do I look with red lips ? :D 

Alright thanks for reading ! 

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Hey :D 

So if you guys followed me on Instagram ( if you haven't go follow okay ! ) you would have know that I went to GGC concert or something like that ? Yesterday ! 

So I went to scape to wait for lining and LeYi , usual hang out place ~ as I was there quite early I decided to went up to CHAT ! 

Here's some selfie ! Decided to try thin eyeliner :3 

We have our dinner at Aston before we went down to esplanade ~~ 

And before GGC was out , there was another band who is called gareth Fernandez , and they were really really good , oh and the members playing the bass was really handsome OMG ! It's the first time me and LeYi actually find the same guy handsome so I just sing "For the first time in forever" ~ okay I pity those sitting beside me one have to hear my horrible singing , and they are really really nice ! I took out my phone to took photo of them and the lead singer saw my phone ( I guess ) from quite a distance and looked at my direction ! 

They having their debut EP out go check them out okay they damn nice and the lead singer can hit damn high notes I swear 

Oh oh and finally , it's GGC ! 

They performed some of their new songs and old songs , and it was really an awesome experience :) 

And after that , me and lining decided that we need to grab a drinks , so we search for the whole mall okay literally ! Because it was like going to 12 am so it's like every shop there is close , but finally !!!! We found this place that I forgot what is it called HAHAHA but I order peach ice blended ! 

Alright ! Remember to follow me on my social media , thanks for reading and see you in my next post :) 

( I have no idea why do I smile like that OMG )

parents

Sometimes , there are things we just can't communicate with the older generation . Especially to parents . It's like they're from earth , and we're from mars .
no matter how close the age gap is towards your parents and you , there is still gonna be a communication difficulty in some topics .

Teenagers nowadays , are almost all either depressed , self harming , starving themselves , hate themselves , have low self esteem ( i have the same problems ) , wishing that they're never born , and there really isn't any positive thoughts for them , and sadly , this type of teenagers are growing , in a speed of light .

So i have low self esteem , and it's really serious . If i could , i would ripe my face off literally , i would go to plastic surgery if my parents allow and i have the money . Don't tell me what "you shouldn't because your parents give you this face" , "you're already pretty enough" , "Do not care about what others say about you" , Once again , let me just say , i do not care what other says about me , my low self esteem is created by my own mindset . looking at people around , friends , strangers , they're all really pretty , have nice hair , and body figure , and when i look in the mirror , all i see is a face full of flaws . I have never once really look in the mirror and think that i'm beautiful . Never .

And when i told my mum about it , she said that i'm not mature enough , well maybe i'm really not mature enough , i'm still growing up , you can't really expect a girl who is turning 19 to be as mature as a 39 years old right ? I know , how mature you are isn't related to how old you really are , but you can't really expect every 19 years old girl to be really matured . But honestly , the problem isn't about maturity , it's about what's happening inside , in my mind . It's like having a demons inside you , pushing all your confident down and drowning it , and when you push the demon down , it didn't drown , it ended up swimming instead . It's like a living hell , only that you're the prisoner and the police who is in charge of the prison .

There are things where it's the problem about what's happening inside your mind , and not about how mature someone is . But for parents , it's like as long as you grow up , it would all be gone . And we all know , it don't go this easily . It wouldn't let us go so easily.

Generation gap will always be there , different generation have different thinking , and how the society actually picture someone as " beautiful" .

This post is about parents , and the front part is kind of about ranting , but there are things good about them too ,

They take care of our school fees ,
Make sure we have a place to live in ,
Think of our safety when we're outside ,
They may be naggy at times , but they mean well .

They may be really unreasonable , but all they are hoping is their children to be able to be safe ,

Singapore is getting more and more dangerous , slashing , people getting missing mysteriously , a doll that is really creepy , people committing suicide ,  corpse being found ?! Now just WTF is going on . Where has the peaceful Singapore go ?

And some committed suicide due to the stress from education , education are important , but why must we stress students out into the point where they think that if they fail , dying is the only way ?

Parents , adult , they all might have stuffs we can't communicate with them , and every time we do , there bounds to be a big fight . especially when it come to education . And for some , opening to them about that they're Gays / lesbians / bisexual / transgender are the main problems . And about that , I just hope that the people around them would accept them for who they are , there's nothing wrong with it actually , i actually do hope that Singapore or rather the whole world would make same sex marriage legal .

but yeah , love your parents , because without them , you wouldn't be here

thanks for reading :)

Day out with family and my brother girlfriends !

Hey hey hey , so i went out to have a really nice lunch with my mum , my brothers and their girl at M hotel ! Damn i feel so forever alone :( 

anyway here's a selfie of me and my second brother girlfriend ! 

And yes , i'm the youngest .

My OOTD :D how is it huh ?

Salmon !!!!! <3 <3 I literally finish like 2 rows of it because i just love salmon so much ! And it have to be raw . 

Next up sushi time !

Clearly that i have forgotten what the sushi are called in the menu , but they are extremely delicious !! :D hoho it's a long time i have such good food ~~~

And afterward we head down to bugis to pray at the temple and because i was craving for ice cream , we went to bugis plus and have some waffle and ice cream~~

So i got myself and my mum ( we shared ) mint and salted caramel ice cream , and i swear it was the worst choice to choose salted caramel , it's too salty .

Regret regret regret !!!!!

But i honestly had a great day today ! Even though i'm having diarrhea for like 5 times . 

Thanks for reading :) 

see ya in my next post ~  

I hate how blurry this picture is omg 

My eldest brother and my mum ! :D My mum isn't touching the cow , just saying . 

So I decided that since my holiday is coming

I would most probably be blogging more often :) 

So yesterday I met up with 3 person from the burdens ( I'm in a new clique ) and we went to scape

I don't know why but I suddenly got a feeling that I need a creepers 

So I went to get this 

Trust me , before I get this I search all around scape and cineleisure , only to heard things like "sorry we don't have your size" or the price is nicer then the shoe itself ( meaning it's too expensive ) 

And i was like so sad that when wei ting tell me that she's reaching i just told her i'm gonna cry  

So she went to find creepers together with me and i finally got this ^^ . 

I used to not believe in the stupid logic of how platform or heels can make your leg look nicer and now , i'm gonna eat my own word.

I'm gonna wear this almost everyday i go out already , it's comfortable , it make me look taller too . And it seem like i can match this with any outfit ! 

talking about eating , me and wei ting decided to went to aston for dinner before le yi come so TADA

 And after awhile , leyi finally came ! 

And yup , now now , we didn't plan to wear the checkered shirt , this is just , i don't know .

Anyway , so we was bored of scape , so we decided to change location to ION ORCHARD .And damn just look at this beautiful thing we saw 

Isn't this amazing ?! But i don't think its ION because when we get out of the place 

we saw that it wrote "WHEELOCK PLACE"

But then again , it's really pretty . A good thing about going to town , you can always explore as it's really big you know , different shopping malls have different things to see , some have some shop that only that mall have , and you get to see really beautiful scenery like this one !

Alright , thanks for reading my blog ,

Enjoy your day ! 

YTFF / I MET RYAN / Some other stuffs ~

MY OH MY ~

Remember that i mention on my last post that if i can only meet one person from the youtube fanfest , It would be RYAN A.K.A NIGAHIGA ?!

Well guess what ? I MET HIM TODAY .

So i went to scape today after a long time for Noah , Danial Ron , TGIS , UXM Meet and Greet . And the first thing that danial saw me is "Sorry uh I not Jianhao" So i replied that it's okay he still as hot as jianhao and he just went , "If you want me to be hot i can too" and he bite his lips OMG .

OH OH This is how  i manage to meet RYAN

ME , LEYI and KIMMIE run down after the meet and greet and we saw people screaming , and we thought of a location so we started running there , and to what we expected , he was there with some fangirls taking photo with him

So we ran up to him , i mean , it's Ryan . Who wouldn't run ? And this girl saw us running and talked to her earphone and then 3 security came rushing . They stopped us from taking photo with ryan . But before they came , Ryan actually saw us and looked at us .

And Leyi ended up being able to get in , and she said that RYAN actually said that he like how asian fans are respectful and we actually respect the security and he said about what happened today too , and i'm like OK , it's not my eyes that's cheating on me , RYAN . DID . NOTICE . ME . AND . HE . DID . SAW . ME.

And i know that there's many fangirls out there who wanted to meet their idol for a long long time , Trust me , RYAN is my favorite youtuber , i love his videos , just that i'm not really a Lamp .

I just want you to know , Never give up .
You will be able to meet your idol , favorite youtuber too , one day . Believe it .

Oh by the way , if you're finding for shoes at the moment , why not check out MNKSG on instagram ?

(since i got their name card ahahaha ) 

They have shoes from creepers , to shoes that you hardly see people wearing !

YOU CAN NOW SAY GOODBYE TO SEEING PEOPLE WEARING THE SAME SHOES AS YOU AT LEAST . 

If you're like someone like me who really love to wear things that no one wear before and actually look nice in it before buying it la ,you would love to check them out ! 

And one thing good is , because they have a stall at scape during the flea , the owner told me that you can actually preorder your size of shoes , and when it arrive , you can go down to scape to collect the shoes ! 

And i think it's better la cause you can actually feel safer , like for mailing , what if the person who delivered all the mail lost your package ? 

Then you will like lost all your money so i don't really like mailing la .I prefer meet up and you can prevent yourself from getting scammed too .

Getting the owner to get the money and run away , it's fine to me really . But what if the person actually hack into your card and use it ? It happened before , and it was on the news , it wasn't me who is the victim , but that is a really big lesson to everyone who love to shop online . 

And what if some people who claim to be the owner called you and said something that will actually manage to make you transfer the money again and ended up transferring everything in your bank to him / her ?

Better to be safe then sorry . 

So go ahead and like their instagram 

- @ MNKSG 

And their facebook page 

-facebook.com/mnkfashion 

Enjoy shopping and have a nice day :) 

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So i'm down with flu and sore throat this few days and its totally sucks .

I can't believe that i actually said that i miss being sick few months ago and now when it's the moment that i can't be sick , I'm here with a running nose and sore throat .

I mean , Out of everyday and every month of the year , why must it be now ? It's nice that i can take a break finally , but it's not what i expected

In the past , i can go out and play even with a high fever , but now i can't . I slept the whole day . For the first time in forever .

And because of that , i kinda lost my appetite , it's like , i can eat just 3 mouth of rice , and i'm full for like 8 hours ? 

I have no idea what's happening because usually I just

So it kinda freak me out when i felt full with eating so little . But it doesn't really bother me much so

Yeah .

Oh , youtube fanfest . My friends won the ticket to go and here i am , at home using the computer . But it's okay ~ I'm heading town tomorrow too , but not for the event . But if i have to choose to meet one person and only one person from all those who came for the youtube fanfest , it would be RYAN HIGA . 

I mean , I'm not really a Lamp , but I love watching his videos , and it would be really awesome to be able to meet someone who i have watch almost all of his videos .

And talking about this , it remind me back to last year where me and my friends was waiting outside because apparently we didn't have the ticket to go into the party , we only manage to get to the red carpet , and OMG jianhao is so hot *Fangirling* 

And while we're waiting , suddenly two really really nice women just went up to us and ask if we would like to go in and of course , we said yes .

And suddenly , this friend of mine started crying because there's only two ticket ( one pair ) to get in and she said that she have been wanting to meet her ( the singer that came to perform ) for a long time and has been a fan from the start bah bah bah 

So i thought , okay fine , go ahead . And end up to my shocking news, she only know 1 song from her . And that seriously pisses me off . Like you do not call yourself a fan from the start when you just know 1 or 2 song . Like WTF .

Okay i shall end here now 

Bye ~~

So my best friend have been facing a lot of bullying in her school and the situation is getting serious .

Let's get straight to the point alright , firstly , bullying is serious .

So my best friend got called names , just because she have a blog ? Like seriously , what's wrong with having a blog ?
It's not a way to get attention anyway , i mean in this world , tons and tons of people have a blog , If you said that you don't have one , and you're bitching at people who have a blog , it's really ridiculous . if you don't have and don't want to have , why do you even care so much about people who have a blog ? oh and saying only stupid people read her blog ?
 may i ask if you didn't read her blog and she didn't said to you that she have a blog , how did you even know ? And you even know about the contents too ? Are you saying that you're stupid ?  And talking bad things about her just because she met the singapore youtubers and some international youtubers ? That's retarded .

If you're so pissed off at her meeting youtubers , then get out of your home , go for event ,

You get angry when people meet famous people but you don't even want to do anything to get yourself to have the chance of meeting them ? Do you actually expect them to go to your house ? Who do you think you are seriously ?

She get to be close to some of the SGYT like ridhwan , it's because she bothered .

She bother to go for every events , she tried her best to do whatever she can just to meet them . For ridhwan flea , she even wake up early in the morning just to come and help out . And please , don't assume that she always go town just to meet them , cause it's not . Just because she take photo with them many times doesn't means that she hang out with them every times she go out . Don't be retarded . All the things she did for ridhwan , jianhao , she didn't expect anything back , the reason is just because she love them , and ridhwan is her first bias in SGYT . So what's wrong with that ? And calling her a slut just because of that ? Grow the fuck up . Know the definition of the word " Slut" before using it .

Taking photo with idols , youtubers doesn't make someone a slut , it just make them a lucky fan , nothing more .

And you ( to that certain someone ) dared to disturb her , and when she asked her friend to help ? you asked your dad to help you . Woah Joke of the year . You have the balls to bullied someone , and when you get into trouble , you ask your dad for help .

 " If you can't handle the heat , then stay out of the kitchen " - Danial Ron .

when you create trouble outside , be prepared that one day , you will be confront . If you're scared , then don't create trouble in the first place . Simple as that .

And if just by bringing her down when you don't even have a valid reason , or just by bringing people down is your passion , then there's something wrong with you la uh . What's your motive ?

If you can't stand seeing people luckier , happier and more successful then you , no matter who the person is la okay , Then work hard to get to your goal . Bringing people down won't do any good to you . really .

And just saying , no one have the right to ask someone to go kill themselves . You're not god , you don't decide when and how someone die .

I'm sorry if i sound too serious , see ya on my next post ! :)

Beauty tag | would you rather !

So I just found out about this "would you rather" tag and I find that it would be really nice and interesting way to let you ( who may read my blog for awhile or have just found out about this blog ) 

So let's go ! 

Would you rather lose all of your mascaras, eyeliners, lipsticks, and lipglosses or lose all of your palettes and eyeshadows?

Lose all my mascaras 

Would you rather chop off all your hair or never be able to cut it again?

Man this is tough ! Erm if I'm able to grow my hair back then chop all my hair . 

Would you rather have a coral cheek or a pink cheek?

Coral ! 

If you had $1000 to spend, would you rather buy clothes or makeup?

Clothes ! 

Would you rather apply lipstick as eyeliner, or eyeliner as lipstick?

Eyeliner as lipstick ! 

Would you rather only shop at MAC or Sephora?

Sephora !

Would you rather only use one eyeshadow color or one lip color for the rest of your life?

One lip color ! 

Would you rather wear winter clothes in summer or summer clothes in winter?

Summer clothes in winter . But there's no winter in Singapore so yeah 

Would you rather have dark nails or bright nails all year round?

Dark nails ! 

Would you rather give up your favorite lip product or your favorite eye product?

Give up on favorite lip product !

Would you rather only be able to wear your hair in a ponytail or a messy bun?

Ponytail !

Would your rather never be able to paint your nails again or never use lipgloss?

Never use lipgloss 

Would you rather shave your eyebrows and have none at all or sharpie them in 

everyday?

I will die with either of the choice 

Would you rather live without makeup or nail polish?

Without nail polish . 

So yeah ! That's about it , as you can see , I can't live without my eye makeup product , and I will rather die if I'm ask to use a sharpie to draw my eyebrows or shave it . 

It's short , but I hope you guys enjoy it ^^ 

Till the next time ~~

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Death

Death , a really sensitive topic . 

But it have been a topic in my mind since a really young age . 

I have know the truth of death since the age of 9 , I know that death exist , we all have to face it . We can run as long as possible with the help of medication , but we can never hide . 

Medication would help us from avoiding death as long as possible , but when our time is up , no one can save us . 

People always said , that death is scary . But what's scary actually ? Death itself ? No . 

What's scary is 

1) how are we gonna die ? 

2) where will we go ? Is there really hell and heaven ?

There's tons and tons of way of dying 

Suicide , including cutting wrist , swallowing pills , stabbing yourself ( which is really painful ) and so on . Natural death ? Accident . Sleeping to your death . 

We all have our own desire way to die in the future , but we know we can't choose it . Now whether there's hell or heaven ? I don't know , I mean how do we know actually ? People who died can't come back , even if they did I believe people would get too freaked out to even talk to them . 

But remember , if you have nothing to worry about , why do you fear death ? We all gonna face it one day . 

I'm not saying that I'm not afraid , I too am afraid , but I'm not scare of death 

What I'm worry about is what if I died before everyone , I can't bear seeing other cry . I used to be suicidal , thinking that it would be better if I'm gone . But reality slapped me in the face , saying that it wouldn't make a difference if I'm gone , but those who truly care about me would be broken . Families , friends , everyone. 

"We live while waiting for the day of our death" . 

Birthday , It's nice to celebrate your birthday , knowing you're a year older , but at the same time , it's one year closer to you stepping in your grave . 

We all love life , but hate death . Because death is a painful truth . 

Suicidal people too , they might try tons of way to kill themselves , but what they actually want is a relief . 

How would I like my funeral to be like , I think of it before . I want people to actually talk to each other , making my funeral as noisy as possible , with music , dancing , wine , juice and many more , oh there should be balloons as I love it a lot. Write your wishes to me on the balloons and letting them go . Who know ? I might be in heaven . While for my ashes , throw it down to the ocean as I love water . 

We never know , when is the day we gonna die , so remember to always let people around you know how much you love them , before it's too late