But it have been a topic in my mind since a really young age .
I have know the truth of death since the age of 9 , I know that death exist , we all have to face it . We can run as long as possible with the help of medication , but we can never hide .
Medication would help us from avoiding death as long as possible , but when our time is up , no one can save us .
People always said , that death is scary . But what's scary actually ? Death itself ? No .
What's scary is
1) how are we gonna die ?
2) where will we go ? Is there really hell and heaven ?
There's tons and tons of way of dying
Suicide , including cutting wrist , swallowing pills , stabbing yourself ( which is really painful ) and so on . Natural death ? Accident . Sleeping to your death .
We all have our own desire way to die in the future , but we know we can't choose it . Now whether there's hell or heaven ? I don't know , I mean how do we know actually ? People who died can't come back , even if they did I believe people would get too freaked out to even talk to them .
But remember , if you have nothing to worry about , why do you fear death ? We all gonna face it one day .
I'm not saying that I'm not afraid , I too am afraid , but I'm not scare of death
What I'm worry about is what if I died before everyone , I can't bear seeing other cry . I used to be suicidal , thinking that it would be better if I'm gone . But reality slapped me in the face , saying that it wouldn't make a difference if I'm gone , but those who truly care about me would be broken . Families , friends , everyone. "We live while waiting for the day of our death" .
Birthday , It's nice to celebrate your birthday , knowing you're a year older , but at the same time , it's one year closer to you stepping in your grave .
We all love life , but hate death . Because death is a painful truth .
Suicidal people too , they might try tons of way to kill themselves , but what they actually want is a relief .
How would I like my funeral to be like , I think of it before . I want people to actually talk to each other , making my funeral as noisy as possible , with music , dancing , wine , juice and many more , oh there should be balloons as I love it a lot. Write your wishes to me on the balloons and letting them go . Who know ? I might be in heaven . While for my ashes , throw it down to the ocean as I love water .
We never know , when is the day we gonna die , so remember to always let people around you know how much you love them , before it's too late
