and my brothers are busy with their studies , I'm used to being alone at home at a young age .
When I was in primary school ,
I used to be able to see my mum with her bicycle waiting for me outside of the school gate ,
but when primary 3 starts , it stop .
No nothing happened to her , she's healthy and well ,
she just got busy , at the start I would be jealous of people waiting for their parents , jumping up to them when they arrived .
But that doesn't bother me much , I have friends to go home together with ,
I love to challenge myself ,
I would walk on high places , running down the hill ( and yes this cause me to have an accident which lead to my right eye sight to become really bad ) ,
At that part of times , if someone ever tell me "you can't do it" I would do it
. I would try and try so many times , until I finally did it . My motto last time was "nothing is impossible as long as you tried hard enough , giving up isn't an excuse"
I wasn't those typical girl you know , that love dolls , dancing at that time ,
my mum signed me up for Chinese dance before ,
and I quit due to lack of interest , instead , I took up wushu when I was in primary school as my CCA , as I know as a girl , it's important for me to know some self defense . but sadly ,
my dad force me to quit after the first day as he doesn't want me to grow up as a rough girl . ( well I'm still kinda rough tho ) . So that don't really work , the only thing that I like which is gentle is reading and drawing .
As I grow , I started to develop interest in fashion , makeup ,
and I swear I could see the look of joy when my parents find out that I have interest in these .
I bet they must be thinking "finally she isn't so rough anymore"
And I could see the face of my mum changes when I ask her whether I could get myself a sandbag and boxing gloves .
But she agreed to get me those , but I have to save up myself .
I didn't really change much,
Just that I grow up to be someone , who wouldn't care much about proving others that I can do what they said I can't anymore .
I got lazy
I start to think "what's the point ?"
I stop defending myself
I just let people to say what they want to say
I mean , I can't really do anything right ? They have their rights to say whatever they want
It's their mouth and brain in the end .
But when someone start to insult my friends / families , that's when I would start to defend them
Trust me , there are times where I would go
"I hate my mum" , "I hate my brother" etc , but at the end of the day ,
They are still my family , they are still those people I wouldn't mind dying for .
There are times where we fight
There are times where we have cold wars
There are times where the insults got too far
There are times where the jokes are too hurtful
There are times where there's laughter
There are times where there's quarrel
There are times where we just disagree with each other
But in the end , family are important , nothing and no one else could replace them
So treasure them . Because nothing last forever , they are gonna leave you one day .
And this why , I hate death .