YTFF / I MET RYAN / Some other stuffs ~

MY OH MY ~

Remember that i mention on my last post that if i can only meet one person from the youtube fanfest , It would be RYAN A.K.A NIGAHIGA ?!

Well guess what ? I MET HIM TODAY .

So i went to scape today after a long time for Noah , Danial Ron , TGIS , UXM Meet and Greet . And the first thing that danial saw me is "Sorry uh I not Jianhao" So i replied that it's okay he still as hot as jianhao and he just went , "If you want me to be hot i can too" and he bite his lips OMG .

OH OH This is how  i manage to meet RYAN

ME , LEYI and KIMMIE run down after the meet and greet and we saw people screaming , and we thought of a location so we started running there , and to what we expected , he was there with some fangirls taking photo with him

So we ran up to him , i mean , it's Ryan . Who wouldn't run ? And this girl saw us running and talked to her earphone and then 3 security came rushing . They stopped us from taking photo with ryan . But before they came , Ryan actually saw us and looked at us .

And Leyi ended up being able to get in , and she said that RYAN actually said that he like how asian fans are respectful and we actually respect the security and he said about what happened today too , and i'm like OK , it's not my eyes that's cheating on me , RYAN . DID . NOTICE . ME . AND . HE . DID . SAW . ME.

And i know that there's many fangirls out there who wanted to meet their idol for a long long time , Trust me , RYAN is my favorite youtuber , i love his videos , just that i'm not really a Lamp .

I just want you to know , Never give up .
You will be able to meet your idol , favorite youtuber too , one day . Believe it .

Oh by the way , if you're finding for shoes at the moment , why not check out MNKSG on instagram ?

(since i got their name card ahahaha ) 

They have shoes from creepers , to shoes that you hardly see people wearing !

YOU CAN NOW SAY GOODBYE TO SEEING PEOPLE WEARING THE SAME SHOES AS YOU AT LEAST . 

If you're like someone like me who really love to wear things that no one wear before and actually look nice in it before buying it la ,you would love to check them out ! 

And one thing good is , because they have a stall at scape during the flea , the owner told me that you can actually preorder your size of shoes , and when it arrive , you can go down to scape to collect the shoes ! 

And i think it's better la cause you can actually feel safer , like for mailing , what if the person who delivered all the mail lost your package ? 

Then you will like lost all your money so i don't really like mailing la .I prefer meet up and you can prevent yourself from getting scammed too .

Getting the owner to get the money and run away , it's fine to me really . But what if the person actually hack into your card and use it ? It happened before , and it was on the news , it wasn't me who is the victim , but that is a really big lesson to everyone who love to shop online . 

And what if some people who claim to be the owner called you and said something that will actually manage to make you transfer the money again and ended up transferring everything in your bank to him / her ?

Better to be safe then sorry . 

So go ahead and like their instagram 

- @ MNKSG 

And their facebook page 

-facebook.com/mnkfashion 

Enjoy shopping and have a nice day :) 

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So i'm down with flu and sore throat this few days and its totally sucks .

I can't believe that i actually said that i miss being sick few months ago and now when it's the moment that i can't be sick , I'm here with a running nose and sore throat .

I mean , Out of everyday and every month of the year , why must it be now ? It's nice that i can take a break finally , but it's not what i expected

In the past , i can go out and play even with a high fever , but now i can't . I slept the whole day . For the first time in forever .

And because of that , i kinda lost my appetite , it's like , i can eat just 3 mouth of rice , and i'm full for like 8 hours ? 

I have no idea what's happening because usually I just

So it kinda freak me out when i felt full with eating so little . But it doesn't really bother me much so

Yeah .

Oh , youtube fanfest . My friends won the ticket to go and here i am , at home using the computer . But it's okay ~ I'm heading town tomorrow too , but not for the event . But if i have to choose to meet one person and only one person from all those who came for the youtube fanfest , it would be RYAN HIGA . 

I mean , I'm not really a Lamp , but I love watching his videos , and it would be really awesome to be able to meet someone who i have watch almost all of his videos .

And talking about this , it remind me back to last year where me and my friends was waiting outside because apparently we didn't have the ticket to go into the party , we only manage to get to the red carpet , and OMG jianhao is so hot *Fangirling* 

And while we're waiting , suddenly two really really nice women just went up to us and ask if we would like to go in and of course , we said yes .

And suddenly , this friend of mine started crying because there's only two ticket ( one pair ) to get in and she said that she have been wanting to meet her ( the singer that came to perform ) for a long time and has been a fan from the start bah bah bah 

So i thought , okay fine , go ahead . And end up to my shocking news, she only know 1 song from her . And that seriously pisses me off . Like you do not call yourself a fan from the start when you just know 1 or 2 song . Like WTF .

Okay i shall end here now 

Bye ~~

So my best friend have been facing a lot of bullying in her school and the situation is getting serious .

Let's get straight to the point alright , firstly , bullying is serious .

So my best friend got called names , just because she have a blog ? Like seriously , what's wrong with having a blog ?
It's not a way to get attention anyway , i mean in this world , tons and tons of people have a blog , If you said that you don't have one , and you're bitching at people who have a blog , it's really ridiculous . if you don't have and don't want to have , why do you even care so much about people who have a blog ? oh and saying only stupid people read her blog ?
 may i ask if you didn't read her blog and she didn't said to you that she have a blog , how did you even know ? And you even know about the contents too ? Are you saying that you're stupid ?  And talking bad things about her just because she met the singapore youtubers and some international youtubers ? That's retarded .

If you're so pissed off at her meeting youtubers , then get out of your home , go for event ,

You get angry when people meet famous people but you don't even want to do anything to get yourself to have the chance of meeting them ? Do you actually expect them to go to your house ? Who do you think you are seriously ?

She get to be close to some of the SGYT like ridhwan , it's because she bothered .

She bother to go for every events , she tried her best to do whatever she can just to meet them . For ridhwan flea , she even wake up early in the morning just to come and help out . And please , don't assume that she always go town just to meet them , cause it's not . Just because she take photo with them many times doesn't means that she hang out with them every times she go out . Don't be retarded . All the things she did for ridhwan , jianhao , she didn't expect anything back , the reason is just because she love them , and ridhwan is her first bias in SGYT . So what's wrong with that ? And calling her a slut just because of that ? Grow the fuck up . Know the definition of the word " Slut" before using it .

Taking photo with idols , youtubers doesn't make someone a slut , it just make them a lucky fan , nothing more .

And you ( to that certain someone ) dared to disturb her , and when she asked her friend to help ? you asked your dad to help you . Woah Joke of the year . You have the balls to bullied someone , and when you get into trouble , you ask your dad for help .

 " If you can't handle the heat , then stay out of the kitchen " - Danial Ron .

when you create trouble outside , be prepared that one day , you will be confront . If you're scared , then don't create trouble in the first place . Simple as that .

And if just by bringing her down when you don't even have a valid reason , or just by bringing people down is your passion , then there's something wrong with you la uh . What's your motive ?

If you can't stand seeing people luckier , happier and more successful then you , no matter who the person is la okay , Then work hard to get to your goal . Bringing people down won't do any good to you . really .

And just saying , no one have the right to ask someone to go kill themselves . You're not god , you don't decide when and how someone die .

I'm sorry if i sound too serious , see ya on my next post ! :)

Beauty tag | would you rather !

So I just found out about this "would you rather" tag and I find that it would be really nice and interesting way to let you ( who may read my blog for awhile or have just found out about this blog ) 

So let's go ! 

Would you rather lose all of your mascaras, eyeliners, lipsticks, and lipglosses or lose all of your palettes and eyeshadows?

Lose all my mascaras 

Would you rather chop off all your hair or never be able to cut it again?

Man this is tough ! Erm if I'm able to grow my hair back then chop all my hair . 

Would you rather have a coral cheek or a pink cheek?

Coral ! 

If you had $1000 to spend, would you rather buy clothes or makeup?

Clothes ! 

Would you rather apply lipstick as eyeliner, or eyeliner as lipstick?

Eyeliner as lipstick ! 

Would you rather only shop at MAC or Sephora?

Sephora !

Would you rather only use one eyeshadow color or one lip color for the rest of your life?

One lip color ! 

Would you rather wear winter clothes in summer or summer clothes in winter?

Summer clothes in winter . But there's no winter in Singapore so yeah 

Would you rather have dark nails or bright nails all year round?

Dark nails ! 

Would you rather give up your favorite lip product or your favorite eye product?

Give up on favorite lip product !

Would you rather only be able to wear your hair in a ponytail or a messy bun?

Ponytail !

Would your rather never be able to paint your nails again or never use lipgloss?

Never use lipgloss 

Would you rather shave your eyebrows and have none at all or sharpie them in 

everyday?

I will die with either of the choice 

Would you rather live without makeup or nail polish?

Without nail polish . 

So yeah ! That's about it , as you can see , I can't live without my eye makeup product , and I will rather die if I'm ask to use a sharpie to draw my eyebrows or shave it . 

It's short , but I hope you guys enjoy it ^^ 

Till the next time ~~

Bye bye ! 

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Death

Death , a really sensitive topic . 

But it have been a topic in my mind since a really young age . 

I have know the truth of death since the age of 9 , I know that death exist , we all have to face it . We can run as long as possible with the help of medication , but we can never hide . 

Medication would help us from avoiding death as long as possible , but when our time is up , no one can save us . 

People always said , that death is scary . But what's scary actually ? Death itself ? No . 

What's scary is 

1) how are we gonna die ? 

2) where will we go ? Is there really hell and heaven ?

There's tons and tons of way of dying 

Suicide , including cutting wrist , swallowing pills , stabbing yourself ( which is really painful ) and so on . Natural death ? Accident . Sleeping to your death . 

We all have our own desire way to die in the future , but we know we can't choose it . Now whether there's hell or heaven ? I don't know , I mean how do we know actually ? People who died can't come back , even if they did I believe people would get too freaked out to even talk to them . 

But remember , if you have nothing to worry about , why do you fear death ? We all gonna face it one day . 

I'm not saying that I'm not afraid , I too am afraid , but I'm not scare of death 

What I'm worry about is what if I died before everyone , I can't bear seeing other cry . I used to be suicidal , thinking that it would be better if I'm gone . But reality slapped me in the face , saying that it wouldn't make a difference if I'm gone , but those who truly care about me would be broken . Families , friends , everyone. 

"We live while waiting for the day of our death" . 

Birthday , It's nice to celebrate your birthday , knowing you're a year older , but at the same time , it's one year closer to you stepping in your grave . 

We all love life , but hate death . Because death is a painful truth . 

Suicidal people too , they might try tons of way to kill themselves , but what they actually want is a relief . 

How would I like my funeral to be like , I think of it before . I want people to actually talk to each other , making my funeral as noisy as possible , with music , dancing , wine , juice and many more , oh there should be balloons as I love it a lot. Write your wishes to me on the balloons and letting them go . Who know ? I might be in heaven . While for my ashes , throw it down to the ocean as I love water . 

We never know , when is the day we gonna die , so remember to always let people around you know how much you love them , before it's too late 

Being a admin is hard , but fun at the same time

I started being a admin of Haonation from July 11 2013 , yes I still remember it . Before that day , which is July 10 , Jianhao DM-ed me and said that he had read the book ( I wrote like 5 pages OMG ) and he told me that I should stop being negative , I was feeling upset at that times and I just smile . 

And few hours later , he DM-ed me again , asking me if I would like to be a admin of Haonation if there's spot available . And I replied yes , not because I wanted to have attention , I just think that it would be nice to work with Kimmie and Christina to help Jianhao , to make Jianhao really well known , until the point where no one would ask "Jianhao ? Who's that ?" I remembered that's one time where I went to meet jianhao for some reason , and a group of girls came to take photo with Ridhwan , but when Ridhwan ask whether they wanted a photo with Jianhao too , they just turned to him and like "who's that" . 

So I whatsapped Kimmie and tells her about it , but what I didn't expected was her telling me that she's giving up her spot and giving it to me . I was lost at that part , I kept telling her not to , but I failed . She had her reasons , and I was really sad . She was the best admin to me , and Mavis too of course . 

And at the start , I get tons and tons of hates from some Haonation as they prefer Kimmie to be the admin , and not me . I'm really glad that the hating have stop coming , only that sometimes I would still get it . But I was really grateful that almost all of the Haonation is willing to let me try . I might reply to haters rudely , having a attitude to them like "fuck you haters" but actually it does affect me a lot , it affected me so hard that I actually tells Jianhao that I'm sorry I wasn't doing a good job , and he actually cheers me up , give me tips on how to be better . I'm really really insecure , and that's why when I see that he tells me that "I'm not disappointing him" and he even said that he thinks I'm doing a good job . And that's really enough . 

At the first few months ,  he would randomly tells me that "I'm doing a good job" , "I'm the best admin" I think it's because he knows how insecure I am ? Haha , and that always make me smile . Nothing feel better then this , trust me . 

And I was really afraid of crowds , when Jianhao tells me to handle the crowds on his flea my mind just went "FUCK" . But I still tried my best to , I nearly fainted at the flea , it's normal when I get too nervous . And trust me , whenever I see Jianhao get mobbed I would get really pissed , he can't stands heat . What if Jianhao get hurts ? I don't mind not having a photo with him , my last photo with him was like last year . But just don't mob him . Please . 

If you had ever hang out with me , or you are my friends you would have hear me say how awesome Jianhao is , all the memories I had with him and how much I love him . 

The best memory I had with him was on the 1D movie event thingy . I promised Peggy that I would go with her even though i wasn't a Directioner. And she was late . I am really afraid of crowds and I get freaked out , I was wondering why isn't Peggy here yet , I got so afraid that I'm gonna cry at that time , and to my surprise , Jianhao came in . He saw me alone and smiled . He walked over and sit right infront of me asking me what's wrong . I told him and Ridhwan actually came too , both of them get Starbucks and sit down with me , even though we didn't talk much , I'm happy enough . 

I has thoughts of giving up , I had cried thinking that why am I not good enough . Stressed up when there's event , when I whatsapp about 20 or 30 + haonations and most of the times about half would throw questions to me at the same times , and trust me , I actually didn't asked Jianhao for permission to do imagines whoops . But end up , he asked me to do more AHAHAHA . 

It's been almost a year . Times really fly , I still remember that moment where I would freak out , not knowing what to do . 

I'm proud to says that I'm a Haonation , and a admin of haonation too , I'm proud of how much Jianhao had grow in just a short while . I won't give up unless Jianhao found someone better to be his admin , and at that times , I know I would cry , I would miss being his admin , so now , I would treasure it :) . 

And I'm really happy to know many friends from Haonation , people like my clique "pigtowners" , Yingling , Melissa , Raihanah ( she's the admin of Aden fanclub btw ) , Kimmie , Christina !

I don't have a photo of Jianhao I could post so here's my selfie AHAHAHAA 

And lastly , I love Jianhao , he will and always will be my first bias . 

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So , I met up with LeYi today once again , and we went to haji lane !

Oh and i decided to do something I don't usually do when I do makeup , drawing my eyebrows ! 

My OOTD today ! ( I have short legs OMG why !!) 

We decided to wait for each other at bugis Starbucks  , and because I live nearer to bugis , I actually reach there earlier then her so I went to have a seat .

And few minutes later she came !

Yes that's LeYi ! I call her slut btw ! As if anyone would care AHAHAHA

So we decided that it would be good to get shades ( just for our OOTD AHAHA ) so we went over to bugis street to get it ! It was $15 ! 

After that , we was lost . Yes we're lost while trying to find our way to haji lane , and at that moment , GOOGLE MAP TO THE RESULT , I don't know how to look at a map so that's LeYi job ! 

Finally , we reached haji lane !!

Now now , since the place was so amazing , it's time for some OOTD shots ! I mean , there isn't much places in Singapore that look this artistic !! 

Don't judge the way I seat  >( 

We had a lot of fun there , there's even a shop that sell arm candies for like 5 for $10 OMG 

( Hi yogurt , it's been a long time , and my portable charger decided to photobomb )

Okay totally no link XD. Now now back to 

topic , haji lane is a really beautiful places and I could see people with professional camera taking pictures over there ! While I'm here trying to act all "professional" with my iPhone 5 camera LOL 

But hey hey do not judge me ! 

This is the first time I ever liked myself in spectacles ! 

And now let me end this post with a weird selfie of me ~

Thanks for reading xx 

This is the last one I swear XD

friendzone

This is how most relationship went

First start off as strangers 

Then to friends 

And then best friends 

To one having crush on another 

And at this stage of time , there's 3 result 

1) you get the boy / girl you have a crush on 

2) they friendzone you 

3) they had a crush on someone else and get together with them 

Love is really complicated , you can't really study or understand it 

It's a form of emotion , there's time where I can just go "fuck love" 

And then suddenly someone would come in my life 

Make me fall in love again 

Only to know the feeling of heartbreak

The best result , would be the first one 

The worst ? The third one .

People always complain to me being friendzone by their crush 

But just think , it's really nothing .

 I mean , at least you and him / her could still remain friends , you could still hang out together , text and everything . 

You wanna know what's hurt the most ? 

Losing someone you love in your life . 

The worst that could happens is looking at the person you had a crush on , walking away , turning their back on you , they stop asking , they stop caring , they stop everything they used to do to / with you . 

When that happens , 

Your mind will go : "I warned you"

Your mouth will say : "just leave , I don't care anyway"

But deep inside , you're hurting . 

Your heart is broken 

Memories with them would kept coming back 

All the times you had together , all the laughter , the tears , the awkwardness , and maybe a little flirting are gone . 

All you could do is stare at the celling at night 

Tears falling while the flashback starts

But in the morning , you smile , acting as if you really don't care about them leaving your life with no reason at all

You stop going to places you used to go

Because that's the place where you and him / her hang out 

That's the place you would always see them

And thus , avoiding starts 

So that's why , if I can't get the first result 

I will rather that I got friendzone 

It's easier that way 

Really . 

Family

Because my parents are busy with work ,
and my brothers are busy with their studies , I'm used to being alone at home at a young age .
When I was in primary school ,
I used to be able to see my mum with her bicycle waiting for me outside of the school gate ,
but when primary 3 starts , it stop .
No nothing happened to her , she's healthy and well ,
she just got busy , at the start I would be jealous of people waiting for their parents , jumping up to them when they arrived .
But that doesn't bother me much , I have friends to go home together with ,
 I love to challenge myself ,
 I would walk on high places , running down the hill ( and yes this cause me to have an accident which lead to my right  eye sight to become really bad ) ,
At that part of  times , if someone ever tell me "you can't do it" I would do it
. I would try and try so many times , until I finally did it . My motto last time was "nothing is impossible as long as you tried hard enough , giving up isn't an excuse"
I wasn't those typical girl you know , that love dolls , dancing at that time ,
my mum signed me up for Chinese dance before ,
and I quit due to lack of interest , instead , I took up wushu when I was in primary school as my CCA , as I know as a girl , it's important for me to know some self defense . but sadly ,
my dad force me to quit after the first day as he doesn't want me to grow up as a rough girl . ( well I'm still kinda rough tho ) . So that don't really work , the only thing that I like which is gentle is reading and drawing .

As I grow , I started to develop interest in fashion , makeup ,
and I swear I could see the look of joy when my parents find out that I have interest in these .
I bet they must be thinking "finally she isn't so rough anymore"
And I could see the face of my mum changes when I ask her whether I could get myself a sandbag and boxing gloves .
But she agreed to get me those , but I have to save up myself .

I didn't really change much,
Just that I grow up to be someone , who wouldn't care much about proving others that I can do what they said I can't anymore .
I got lazy
I start to think "what's the point ?"
I stop defending myself
I just let people to say what they want to say
I mean , I can't really do anything right ? They have their rights to say whatever they want
It's their mouth and brain in the end .
But when someone start to insult my friends / families , that's when I would start to defend them
Trust me , there are times where I would go
"I hate my mum" , "I hate my brother" etc , but at the end of the day ,
They are still my family , they are still those people I wouldn't mind dying for .

There are times where we fight
There are times where we have cold wars
There are times where the insults got too far
There are times where the jokes are too hurtful
There are times where there's laughter
There are times where there's quarrel
There are times where we just disagree with each other
But in the end , family are important , nothing and no one else could replace them 

So treasure them . Because nothing last forever , they are gonna leave you one day .
And this why , I hate death . 

TMI ( too much information ) tag !

Okay so I was tag by my friends so yup , this is the TMI tag ! 

1) where were you 3 hours ago ?

Town area especially 313 and scape 

 

2) confession 

When I get nervous , I tend to feel like fainting , and there cases that I REALLY faint 

3) any bad habits ?

I bite my nails to the point that it would bleed sometimes . I tried the way of putting nail polish but I just end up bitting it , and when I realize , my nails has already been bitten off by me 

4) addiction 

I'm addicted to my phone I guess ? I will freak out if I didn't have my phone beside me for 5 minutes , and I will most probably be rude to you if you take my phone away without my permission 

5) who is your favorite YouTuber ? 

HAHAHA OKAY 

For Singapore one 

first - Jianhao 

Second - Ridhwan 

Third - danial Ron 

International 

First - NinkComPoop 

Second - Ryan Higa 

Third - Smosh 

6) give a song lyrics to someone who cut ?

"I know your heart is hurting , you think the road has end , you may think the blade you're holding is your only friend , but baby don't cut , baby don't cut , baby promise me that you won't cut" 

7) ideal type of guy 

Someone who is matured , funny , caring and know what they want 

8) what is the food that you can eat forever without getting sick of it ?

Fries . 

9) meaning behind your blog name ?

It's just my name . 

10) turn off ?

Rude people 

11) turn on ?

Guys that make me laugh / guy who have a little muscle but not too much , just look fit 

12) makeup routine 

holy shit .. Okay don't judge me 

( I put my contact lens on before my makeup )

First - primer 

Second - liquid foundation 

Third - powder foundation ( close to my skin tone )

Four - concealer to conceal my dark circles and some redness on the cheek 

Fifth - powder 

Sixth - eyeliner 

Seven - eyeshadow ( optional )

Eighth - contour and highlight 

Ninth - lip balm / lipstick ( optional )

13 ) how long does it take for me to complete my makeup ?

15 minutes ? 

14 ) favorite quote 

Fuck society idea of beauty 

15 ) special things that you like ?

I don't find it special but I like skeletons , skulls , blood 

16 ) any special ability ?

I used to be able to see ghost, and I used to have many cases of me seeing them , but now I can't see them , just that I can sense them and hear them sometimes 

17 ) fears 

I have a really weird fear , I'm really afraid of wigs 

18 ) loud music or soft music ?

Loud . 

19 ) something you miss ?

The times where my clique were close , we hang out everyday and fangirl together 

20 ) how tall are you ? 

161 

 

21 ) what's your weight ?

Overweight and I'm on my way of losing my weight ! My idea weight is like 50 kg !

22 ) What would you do when you're sad ?

I would hurt myself by pinching / punch the wall until my knuckles are all red or bleed  . Yes it's stupid but it make me feel better . 

23 ) favorite bands

Black veil brides , 5 second of summer

24 ) things that you're proud of ?

I had completely stopped cutting , yes I used to cut , but I'm still suicidal . 

Okay , I shall end it here ! 

Thanks for reading ^^